Im warning you now, this blog is religious.

I am a christian, and I love God now, and for the rest of my life. But I do have a few weird questions..that only he can answer. I was just wondering how many people besides myself, ever think about this.

What is our purpose here on earth? Why are we here? Are we here to just live? Are we here to help others? Are we here to proove something? What is the reason? I know that God wants to test me on how I live my life, so he can decide where I will end up, but is that the only reason I am here?

Outerspace. How the fuck did it get here? I have heard about the big bang theory, but how is that even possible? It's like outerspace just appeared out of nowhere, and it just seems impossible to me. Should I be skeptical? How the hell can a bunch of planets, the sun, and stars just appear without no reason?

Okay, so they say God created the big bang. Well maybe he did. But I just find it rather..weird, and it just seems like it couldn't have happened like that.

I am not changing my view of God, nor am I doubting him, I am JUST wondering.

These questions have been on my mind for a long time.

How did people just appear on Earth? I know Mary had baby Jesus, and that is how it all started, but then how did Mary get here? Was it because of God? But if that is the case, then how did God get here? Did he just appear out of nowhere? How in the world did he become?

In my mind, it's like someone [God] just appeared out of nothing. It's like the first person in the whole universe just appeared out of nowhere like the algae on the bottom of the sea. How can someone appear from nothing? Isn't that impossible? It amazes me what our world can do these days. Our language, and the way we communicate is just amusing.

And 'life'. What is God's definition of LIFE? Were born just so we can die? What the heck is up with that? Are we supposed to be learning a lesson?

Sometimes I wish I could just live my life and do what I want, instead of feeling guilty, and always worrying about my sins. I don't know if that is selfish or not, but I just wonder why we have to even live a life? What is the point in living a life for someone else? Im not saying I do not want to live for God, I am JUST wondering. Im not going to change my relegion, or anything of that matter, I am just curious.

What is this whole plan God has, really about? I really want to know what my purpose for living is. Am I crazy, or does anything else think like this?

 OH, AND TO CLEAR IT UP, I DO KNOW THE STORY OF ADAM AND EVE. BUT I ALSO KNOW THAT GOD AND JESUS ARE 2 DIFFERENT PEOPLE. I HAD TO ADD THIS LITTLE SECTION BECAUSE I DONT WANT ANYONE TAKING ME THE WRONG WAY. GOD MADE ADAM AND EVE, JESUS DIDNT. JESUS WAS THE ONE WHO DIED FOR OUR SINS, THATS WHY IT SAYS IN THE BIBLE DO NOT USE GODS NAME, USE JESUS'S NAME, BECAUSE HE WAS THE ONE WHO DIED FOR US. IM JUST A LITTLE CONFUSED ABOUT MY RELIGION, AND IF ANY ONE HAS ANYTHING THEY NEED TO SAY, THAT COULD HELP, FEEL FREE TO COMMENT AWAY!