If you don't like or want to read about a rant, then just close the page and view another blog. I'm warning you now...go ahead and click the X at the top of the screen. Okay, those who are still with me, here it goes.

So here I am in the prime of my youth and I doubt I could feel any older. It seems like everything is going wrong at once. Several weeks ago I had to go into Urgent Care because I was really sick. I found out that I was severely dehydrated. Okay, so I'll drink more water. I think everything is going good after about a week. I weigh myself on my mom's scale- because it shows the percentage of water weight- and I'm still 5% under! Women should be 45-60% water weight or something around there. I'm still only 40% and that was after I was drinking a LOT.

Lately now, after pulling doubles at work, my left knee has been KILLING me. It's at the top of the knee and I can't even sit down without near-crippling pain. I mean, this shit HURTS! I normally can't move my legs for 5-10 seconds. When I'm not getting up or sitting down, I'm fine. My back will hurt too but only now and then, which I don't understand. One day it will be fine and the next I'll have aches. WTF?

I went to the gynecologist office to get on birth control again and have my yearly check-up. I had to get blood work done there too! The are checking everything out. I know it's their job but I've had so much blood taken out of me lately, I'm bruising. I bet that looks good at work. "Hey kids, our waitress shoots up drugs".

And one last thing, when I turned 18, I started getting eczema on my arm. My dermatologist told me that this was because asthma runs in my family and I"ll have it for life. I fucking HATE it! When it gets hot, it flares up. When I'm in the shower, it flares up. Don't even get me started on being in the kitchen! It'll itch like fuck. Lately my pills and cream haven't been working to help me so I'm going to have to schedule another appointment which is just what I fucking need!

Anyway, like I said, I feel like I'm 50 and I'm only 20. God damn, I'm just so tired of all my physical ailments on top of my mental ones. I just want to be happy and not in pain anymore- mentally or physically. On the plus side though, I recently got called for a job at Halloween USA. This will help pay off the credit card and get my fiance's wisdom teeth yanked out...then he'll be in pain and not me...mwahaha.