Heres how my day started.

My Boss- " Hey rick.  Can I talk to you for a sec."

Me - " Sure Vin.  whats up?"

We walk into his office and he closes the door behind me.  his face reminded me of the look people have at funerals.

Boss - " Take a seat, rick.  (takes a deep breath) Ricky, the company is having some troubling times and is going through resource cutbacks"

My head dips down a bit and i stare my manager in the eye and probably look like I am going to choke him

Me- " you mean lay offs"

Boss- "well yeah i dont know why the company calls it resource cutbacks they are just lay offs.  dont worry, you are not affected"

Me- " JESUS CHRIST VIN!! You didnt think it was a good idea to start the conversation with that line." 

I am still shaking from it.  Someone on my team is going to get laid off and we are already short a 2 people ( we only have 10 left) .  I think the team lead will be the one to go.  hes a 60 year old Pizan from yonkers, ny.  hes been with the company for 41 years and he was planning on retiring at the end of this year anyway.  now he will leave a few month early and collect severance so he may even benefit in the end.  either way it blows.  My manager seems to be having a real hard time about it.  i feel like throwing up. I know one of my friends from college is getting cut.  she got a poor peformance rating which meant no bonus no raise for the year.  she was looking for new jobs now anyway and has been in talks with a head hunter for a while.  I hope she finds something soon.  she doesnt know that the lay offs are going on cause she would have said something to me by now.  I dont want to be the one to bring it up.  i hope im wrong on my assumption.  anyway im glad i get to keep my job.  the company is letting go of 16000 and it hasnt been making much headlines.  fucked up thing is the email we got from our CEO for year end saying we had our most profitable year ever.  oh well another 30% raise for him, while we get a shitty 2% raise ( if we even get one this year.  If i had superpowers i would use them to intimidate CEOS and corporate warlords to try to do whats right for everyone, not just their pockets, or the company for that year.   the guy makes over 33 million a year in salary and bonuses.  his pension payout will be 2 million a year until the guy dies.  Now i believe corporate heads should obviously make alot of money but 33 million a year?  5 isnt enough?  or even 10?  I dunno what to think or even what I am saying really.  its just been an off day and I am trying my best to keep busy until this day is over.