Well i just been so FUCKING PISS OFF i CANT FUCKING STAND IT !!!

i fucking hate you im going to forget you and make you forget me also what i said is all gone i have to start all over AGAIN GOD !!!! FUCK IT !! I GUESS FINDING A MEANING TO A MEANINGLESS LIFE IS DONE WITH ME SO IM BACK for those WHO DONT KNOW im GOING BACK TO WHAT I USE TO BE, WHEN I STARTED AND THIS TIME IM FINSISHING MYSELF NOONE CAN STOP NOW !! ITS GONE NO MORE REASON TO GO ON THIS LIFE IT BACK TO MY UNREALIZM THE THINGS THAT MADE ME FORGET I WAS STILL HERE YET THEY SEEM TO BRING ME BACK TO HER !! BUT I HAVE TO ERASE EVERYTHING NOW , NEXT FUCK THAT GETS IN MY WAY IS GONE !!! so IF you EVEN HAVE 1 CARE GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY !! I HAVEN'T HAD A DRINK OF ANYTHING IN AWHILE BUT TONIGHT IT STARTS !!! FUCK YOU AND FUCK THEM !!!

YOU CHANGE AND I COULD CARE LESS NOW AND I HAVE NEVER DONE THINGS YOU SAID YOU REMEMBER MAYBE IM NOT THE ONE WHO IS LOSING IT, maybe IT'S YOU !!! YOU CHANGE AND NOW I DONT CARE I HAVE 8 MORPHINE AND EVERY NITE THE COUNT WILL GO UP TILL IM GONE AND TO GO WITH IT HAVE MY FAVORITE POISON AND IF I DIE DRINK THE POISON CHOOSEN FOR THE NIGHT !!! YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN AND ONLY YOU GUYS UNDERSTAND !!! THANK FOR BEING THERE AND YOUR RIGHT IT's WRONG BUT IM HAVING a FUN TIME DOING THIS !!! AND WONT STOP TILL I CUT MY LIFE !!! THEN IT WILL STOP SO IM GOING NOW AND SMOKING THIS CIG AND DRINK THESE PILLS WITH MY POISON THIS IS MY LAST UPDATE FUcK YOU AND I REALLY DID LOVE YOU JUST COULDNT SAY IT !! IN TIME !!!
SORRY IM NOT A ASSHOLE AND CHOOSE NOT TO CONFORM TO WHAT LIFE HAS GIVEN ME !!!

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haha this was a old Journal entry i found, when i was 16, man i was a really horrible alcholic and drug addict, \How about you guys ever come across some of your old works, blogs, journal entrys and look back at the times you had ??? i know i do !!