It is my opinion that A.D.D. and A.D.H.D. is a crock, when I was somewhere around 10 years old I was diagnosed with A.D.H.D. For those of you who don't know what it stands for thats attention deficit hyper disorder, at least that's how I remember it... Hyper!? Please, anyone that knows me on a personal level would laugh at the thought of me being hyper. Anyway the doctor said take two of these and ill see you in a month. I distinctly remember the difference of myself on and off the pills, and when I was a teenager I pretty much told my mom fuck that; I stopped taking the pills and my grades went down hill. I stopped giving a shit, but I relate my bad grades more to the fact that like I said, I didn't care. The point to this is that I went out into the world worked my way up the latter with a crappy job and realized it only got crappier. I decided to go back to school, (as I mentioned in a previous blog due to the help of some outside family members) I am know studying to be a Civil Engineer. My grades thus far have been fine, sure I bombed a test or two but I have recovered with mostly A's and B's. The problem? I find that I am unable to focus. I have been contemplating the pills but like I said I know its a crock, its the easy way out and I want to prove that I got this on my own. At the same time I want to ensure my absolute understanding of the material, sure grades are important but really I want to make sure that when I am designing a highway or a building someday that I don't fuck it up. I don't think I need the pills to make this happen but you get the idea.